Had better days

At 40 years old, I an NOT where I'd thought I would be. Having to ask your parents for money is embarrassing at this age. I just wish I knew how to get to where I thought I would be. I feel like I take 1 step forward and then 5 steps back. UGHHH...

Thanks for listening.

Road to nowhere

Ok, so I have officially gone public. Sorta. See I started THIS blog as a way to deal with things in my life that are dragging me down. BUT I wasn't going to tell anyone in the family that this blog even existed. Not so I could use it as a stage to rag about them, just so I could have some privacy.

But since I have started a second blog that I did let them know about and they can access this one if they look hard enough. I might have to redirect my focus of this blog. Because there are some things I don't want to share with those closest to me. Does that make sense? I don't want to hurt anyone's feeling but I just want to have my one space, ya know?

We shall just see how thing progress.

Poker face

I'm still here... Still stressed... Dealing with what God has giving me the best I can.

I'm trying to stay positive and I know things will all work out in time.

Also, I think I have decided to change the focus of this blog. Not sure what to do with that. Suggestions?

Stressed

That's an understatement.

My apologies

Ok so I haven't blogged in a good week or so... I'm totally sorry. I'm not dead. I just haven't had much desire to do anything other than go to work and lay in bed watching LOST.

Here's the deal, I have always been a happy, up kinda person. But this year SUCKS... I turned 40 last December and literally I am emotionally drained. Not because of turning 40...

Oh well, I'm trying to get back into the swing of things.

Peace and blessings

Lost my Kefi

This week I am really down and out. I feel sort lost in the woods. Now mind you, I would love to be out in the woods right now. But that's not exactly what I'm talking about. I feel like I have lost my KEFI... My spirit, my passion...

I feel like there are 2 Cher's... The one everyone else sees and the one inside... I've always been the one who "has her head on straight". Sometimes I don't feel like that. There's things that I want in life and I constantly feel like they are just out of my reach. I know I am not the only one to feel like that but my question is "HOW DO I REACH THEM?"

So I am on a quest. To find my KEFI and to find ME. And grab life by the balls and get what I want!

Meditation

I came out to Lake Z for some quiet meditation. Nature is Medicine.

How I think

“I don't care if you're black, white, straight, bisexual, gay, lesbian, short, tall, fat, skinny, rich or poor. If you're nice to me, I'll be nice to you. Simple as that.”
― Eminem

This quote really seems to sum it up how I feel about people.

First Things First

Ok, so today I decided to start blogging again. I'm not sure exactly why. But before we really get things going there are a few things you should know. Just so it doesn't become an issue later. If it does become an issue later I will redirect you back to this first blog. so here it is.

I'm not writing this blog for you. I'm writing it for me. And just so you know, I don't always use proper English. I write the way I speak. Like we are 2 old friends sitting in the sunroom watching the sunset over the ocean sipping a nice cup of tea having a great conversation. (see that was probably some kind of run on sentence thing, but I don't care.) (Ps. I don't have a sunroom, nor do I live near the ocean, yet)

With that being said, don't judge my writing skills. They are the not greatest but you won't need a translator.

So what are we doing here? That my dear, is the question. I hope to have the answer for that someday. So for now I am going to use this blog space as my personal space to say what ever I please and hopefully find myself along the way.

Welcome, sit back and make yourself comfy.

Peace and blessings to you.